Its just that the newer people I’ve met have the closest ties to the people I’ve failed to reconnect with made me think a lot more in a day than usual. Today was a quiet day with lack of bright sunshine, and of course almost everything reminds me of my family and pretty much everyone else. If my laptop wasn’t such crap I would have so much stuff done already/right now. But of course that’s so like me to blame technology. I spoke too fast and changed up my words too many times when I had to present, that better not happen next time. I wrote too much on my subject and didn’t spend enough time rehearsing. Just its too unreal, how everything was too different a few years before. Of course I miss it, I thought I was having the time of my life. I even miss the ones that dropped off the face of the Earth. Its almost been a whole year since then, but I might as well wait for a sunny day when I know things will get better.